It feels like I'm alone sometimes; like no one truely understands. I believe it is because of my own choices. I seem to push everyone away. Today, while at Bible study, it hit me: I don't think I can let anyone in; truely let them into my life. I know that sounds just like any other girl, but I realize I have never trusted anyone with everything that I am. I have, recently, opened up to a few people about my problem with cutting but I seriously don't think they get it.
I don't truely know why I cut, I just know that if I stop for a little, it gets ten times worse later. I went without it for two months, and then, new years eve I did it again. I have been told numerous times it is wrong, and I mean really do you guys really doubt I know it? I know it's bad for me.
Anyway, I was sitting in Bible study and I swear I could feel like everyone could see right through my front. I didn't say anything and no one said anything.
I feel so crappy right now. I don't know whether I should do it or just sit here....
I hate my life....
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